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Musing on who I am Part 2:Who am I?
I'm the kind of person that needs to keep people at arm's length.
I have to be an asshole and mistrust people not out of hatred but out of fear.
Fear someone will take advantage of my actual kindness.
I mask kind acts with a hateful personality
I do good but act mean
I show affection and anger
I hide behind apathy to keep me safe
From someone that could pull my heart strings
And make me care.
Because happiness is fleeting and enticing
And jealous eyes glare intently
And hands of avarice twitch impatiently
To bide time and take it all away
But no one would ever want to take away anger
Nor Apathy nor hate.
So it is a c
Musing on who I amI'm trying hard...
I'm trying hard to be this good man she thinks I am
I'm trying hard to do what is right for her.
I keep trying to put her needs before mine
I work hard to make her smile
Hear her laugh and see that twinkle in her eye
I try to make her realize how incredible she really is
And show her how much she means to me
Some days I feel like maybe I am not trying hard enough
Sometimes I feel like this is just a charade I am doing and this isn't the real me
The old me was always angry and bitter
Sometimes I wonder if she would do better without me to hold her back
But when I see that smile of hers
when I hear her say that I
JoyceHaving kicked the man in the balls and relieved him of his belongings, Joyce wasn't quite sure what to do next. She could run, but he might come after her the next minute. If she tied him up here, in the middle of nowhere, he might be eaten by wolves; or starve to death. Besides, she didn't have any rope. She could kill him... perhaps. The thought left a bitter taste in her mouth.
'What am I to do with you?' she sighed.
'Well,' he groaned while giving her a look that sent shivers down her spine, 'You can run, but that won't help you, cause I will find you! So you just wait another few minutes until I get back up again - and I mean úp- and t
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